Just Mindless Ramblings

So here I am, living my life in this box apartment working 6/7 having a daily itinerary of home-office-home. It’s not so boring though, the work keeps me occupied. However, on Sundays, I do feel an extreme need to ignore the work that I have saved in my flashdrive with the intention of finishing it at home. We do take some time off after hearing Sunday mass which is celebrated during Saturday afternoon. Some pizza or other fast food in a nearby restaurant takes away the drudgery of our daily routine. Other officemates would see that as pretty trifle but for us, saving as best we can to be able to send money to our families, it is a luxury that our budget has to bear to keep us from going down the road to depression. Hearing from my daughter that my ex went home with his "wife", I didn’t feel a thing anymore. No more anger or hurt, I actually felt a bit sorry for him. He already has 5 kids with her. I told my daughter to be pleasant to her since apparently, he loved her more than he loved us, if he did in the first place. It’s a strange thing. Time can really heal old wounds, not just a dose of anesthesia to make you feel numb coz when it wears off, the pain returns. This, coupled with acceptance of God’s will in our lives makes us look to the future with hope. Speaking of future, it really is uncertain. One would not expect that I will be here at this very moment. I dare not think of how God would rate me for if I were to evaluate myself, I would have long been terminated by the Terminator. But the blessings that He has provided are signs that He is a merciful and loving Father. Only someone who is desperately in love would forgive and forget that much.

~ by jai01 on April 6, 2008.