what a week!!
Looking back, it has been such an eventful week or month rather. So much traveling done (translate that as a drain on the pocket) and a lot of issues raised, resolved but still a lot more unresolved. At some point one can hardly breath, literally, that is. Or maybe it’s just symptoms of hypertension.
The trip to Davao served many reasons. At any rate, the unpleasant one showed some light however small. The satisfying one was that I was able to divert my mind of the heavy thinking that I had to do these past few weeks. Samal Island was a place I wanted to see for sometime. Although some kind of anticlimax since I was somehow expecting more(?) No, not that.. It could have been the heat or what, I can’t really pinpoint the actual cause… the prices? No, that was expected… Or was it the reactions of my companions. I don’t really like to hear grumbling when we are on the receiving end of a favor.. I think of it as a favor because the government was actually spending for the trip. The least we can do is appreciate… That is what I always tell myself, when favors or benefits are given, however small, we should recognize that NOTHING in this big world is FREE except the love of God. So, if we do not want to appreciate, we could at least refrain from complaining, dbah?
Oh well, I really got back to the mainland as soon as I could though, leaving the others behind because the heat is something I cannot stand. It makes me drowsy, gives me migraine, blah, blah, blah… An excuse for simply going off by myself..
On deeper analysis, maybe age has something to do with how I feel about things. Eccentric could be the more appropriate word. I can’t stand the company of so many people for a long period of time. I’m a bad egg in a group (I don’t really express it, I just want out, secret bah… ) I wanna be by myself.. I don’t even want to go shopping. Not that I have the money for it, no… When in a mall, all I can think about is go watch a movie.. I don’t wanna buy anything except food, coffee really. What is this? Unlike before when going to a mall excited me to the max, I can’t think of anything else to do.. Could it be that the financial insufficiency has gotten to me that motivation is already a dead horse? I just wanna sit around and wait until all my companions have gotten their fill of buying. I don’t even feel a twinge of envy.. At least envy would have shown more life… Hehehe!!
I’m really beginning to think that I am anti social, a hermit (the frog, Kermit diay!!). Have I become so self centered that I cannot stand a little heat for the benefit of other people? Ano ba yan!!
We also went to see the crocs in Buhangin. That was something quite educational for John. When he’s happy, I am happy too. That was the first time that he saw those animals except from books. It was also the first time that I got a steam bath in Nabunturan, because we stopped for awhile there on the way home.
Overall, it was a nice change from the usual problems, complaints, feudalism that I will be hearing all over again tomorrow.. Hahahaha!! Ok lang, I’m still breathing but when it stops then, that’s it.. deadbol najod… Hahaha!!
I just felt the urge to write in this blog kay morag na deadbol na pud ug una…
I also happen to enjoy being alone sometimes, and I believe that there is nothing wrong of wanting to be alone. I can relate to what you are feeling because I feel the same way when I’m around with so many people. It’s maybe a sign of aging, but I don’t think I’m that old to feel the same way he.. he..he.. I think it’s just the way we are accustom to.
Maribeth said this on July 4, 2007 at 8:27 am