reminiscing..
A cloud of disappointment came over me yesterday night. I was anticipating success but sadly failure came.. My heart went out to the special person in my life who was first and foremost, the one extremely hurt by that.
It came over me that sometimes real determination plays a very big role in success. I remembered the time when I was reviewing to take the board examinations, I was really depressed then. The first big heartbreak of my life, with a kid and practically no one to turn to. My world then was the down in the pits, blackest of all black. Most people expected me to fail considering the mental and emotional torture I was going through. The few people who believed in me, my dean, my roommates, my parents, they brought a light of hope and some kind of inspiration. My pain was turned into a strong determination to show the one source of that pain that I would not surrender the fight. I decided to show him that my life can and will go on without him.
I was thinking of all the jeers I would receive had I failed that examination. I couldn’t bear that, insult upon injury? I would show them that I can do it, and I did.. All glory and praises back to God..
It is a matter of how we handle the trials and pain in our life, how we turn the weakness into strength. How we pull ourselves up after we stumble and fall. Like harnessing a waterfall, we can get great energy from it..
Since then pain has been like a friend accompanying me through the years. And being constant companions, I have learned her habits and how to adjust and live with her.. She never goes away… comes in all forms.. *sigh*
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